Thursday, October 16
10:20 (I’m slightly disturbed at how I haven’t been sticking to the 6:00am plan, but I’m trying not to overthink it.)
Jeremiah 28:1 – 29:32, 1 Timothy 1:1-20, Psalm 86:1-17 and Proverbs 25:17
I can’t believe it’s Thursday already, but I’m glad it is! The weekend is in view, and it’s going to be a great one! I have a party coming up on Saturday and I cannot. wait. to. flex. Haha! I am also running a 10k race on Sunday, though I haven’t been training! Anyway, I’ll be fine.
There is so much I want to touch on this morning so I’m typing as fast as I can!
1 Timothy 1:19 says “Cling to your faith in Christ, and keep your conscience clear. For some people have deliberatey violated their consciences; as a result, their faith has been shipwrecked (NLT)”.
This is a humbling scripture for me. I am in the process of making new friends at school, and have come across some of the most interesting and diverse people I have ever met. I have also found myself questioning my values, my beliefs and the notions I have held in the past. I think this is good thing; nobody has a monopoly on all the knowledge in the world, and I always find it beneficial to challenge my thought patterns and make room for new ways of thinking.
I have also been wondering about the place of my faith in my new friendships. Do I preach to those who don’t know Christ? Or do I just live, let them see my lifestyle and then ask a question which gives an opening to share my faith?
This scripture is like a directional sign to me, saying: ‘In all you do, Dami, cling to your faith and don’t violate your conscience. All things are lawful, but not all things are expedient‘. If I don’t feel good about doing certain things or going to certain places, then I need to listen to my conscience. In the same way, if I feel it is the right moment to share something about my faith, then I also need to obey my conscience. I can never stray too far away when I walk in faith and a good conscience!
I have always had a pretty loud conscience, and I feel it is something of a disadvantage (haha). If I take a decision that does not sit well with me, I will think, obsess and almost run myself crazy, till I undo it. However, I see that my conscience (and everybody else’s probably) is a gift from God. What happens when I try to ignore and override my conscience is that over time I become numb, and make consecutive decisions that are wrong (for me, and not necessarily for others), and these decisions could eventually become progressively more and more depraved, causing me to shipwreck my faith. God forbid!
Basically, God deals with everyone on an individual basis, via their faith and inner compass. I should not attempt to discard mine, recalibrate it, or use another person’s moral compass. My conscience is linked to my faith and my walk with God.
Another thought that comes to mind is that I should not try to recalibrate another person’s faith walk or moral compass based on mine. With drinking alcohol for (a very honest) example, I have been one to try to convince people of my conviction that there is nothing with drinking done in moderation. However, if God is preventing someone from the lifestyle of an alcoholic and thus has instilled in their conscience a healthy and necessary fear of drinking, and I am here trying to convince them to take one glass, I might be judged if they fall into sin. Deep. I hereby repent and will stop trying to convince people to come around to my convictions!
This also links to some thoughts I had last night about giving and taking advice (I will try to post the tweets later, but for now see my twitter feed, @damioyedele). Recently, an old friend gave me some very well meaning but very wrong advise. In hindsight, her advise was a decision I should never have taken, and having seen the consequences play out, I regret following it. Why? Because it was her conviction, not mine. I am not upset with her, but actually at myself for not being strong enough to process my thoughts and feelings, stick to my own convictions, listen to my conscience, and do what I felt was right. It may have been a wrong decision too, but it would have be 100% mine. Anyway, we live and we learn!
Peace, Love and Convictions,